||[Oct. 25th, 2004|09:38 pm]
Oh, dear. With such busy days lately and the frantic preparations for the ball, I fear I'd completely forgotten about this strange little book. So horrible am I that I cannot even remember something that sits upon the table beside my bed. It should be such a simple task, but for me, it is not.|
Since the celebration has ended, worry has overtaken me. For a short glorious while, I did not have to think about what had transpired in our household. But now... Oh, I have lost Ella all over again, and I have no way of knowing if I have lost the others!
I do wonder if I should simply confess to them all. Perhaps they've realized what I've done by now, and are simply too enraged to come to me.
I wonder, too, if perhaps I should be saying such things more privately. But no! I do not care! If the entire world hears, so be it!